Well it's been over 4 years you left us and God it's been hard. You would be proud of where I am at now in life. I have a beautiful fiancée Janine a step daughter Uma an in the last 6mths my own company which is starting to be really successful. I miss you so much Mum sorry I let you down towards the end. You were so special to us all. Always thinking of you. Love you loads. James